I received this message from Catherine, an Online Missionary in Phoenix, Arizona, suffering from congestive heart failure. Her attitude reminds me of Bill Bright, who never retired, but literally served God until his last breath. I’m certainly inspired, and I trust you will be too:
For me, living is Christ and dying is gain. Now if I live on in the flesh, this means fruitful work for me; and I don’t know which one I should choose. I am pressured by both. I have the desire to depart and be with Christ—which is far better — but to remain in the flesh is more necessary for you. Since I am persuaded of this, I know that I will remain and continue with all of you for your advancement and joy in the faith, so that, because of me, your confidence may grow in Christ Jesus. (Philippians 1:21-26)(HCSB)
According to my cardiologist and all of my other doctors, there is nothing more medical science can do for me. It is only a matter of time before my graduation into the arms of my Lord. I don’t know if He will allow me to linger until the snatching away of the church, which is even at the door. If he does, my body will be changed from corruptible into incorruptible, without ever tasting of physical death.
I am convinced that I must occupy, helping others find their precious gift of salvation and discipling them to maturity, if there is no local body for them to become a working member thereof, until I am unable to do so any longer. The only way I can do this is through the ministries of GMO, as my strength is not enough to allow me to work with and through the outreach ministries of my church any longer.
On November 22nd, and exactly one month later, on December 22nd, I suffered strokes, which left my left side paralyzed. No, there was no lapse in my signing on and keeping up with contacts, I was able to do so with my cell phone! God allowed my BlackBerry with an unsupported browser to sign on so I could help people!
Therefore since we also have such a large cloud of witnesses surrounding us, let us lay aside every weight and the sin that so easily ensnares us, and run with endurance the race that lies before us, keeping our eyes on Jesus, the source and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy that lay before Him endured a cross and despised the shame, and has sat down at the right hand of God’s throne. (Hebrews 12:1-2) (HCSB)
No matter what happens, or when, until I am unable to do so any longer, I want to remain an active GMO Online Missionary. God wants us to occupy until He comes. To me, it doesn’t matter if He’s coming to take me a little earlier than the rest of the church, or with the church, I need to keep running the race until it’s over, one way or the other.